[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":4},["ShallowReactive",2],{"reading-0401":3},"APRIL 1\r\nThough he slay me, yet will I trust him (Job 13:15). For I know whom I have believed (2 Tim. 1:12).\r\nI will not doubt, though all my ships at sea\r\nCome drifting home with broken masts and sails;\r\nI will believe the Hand which never fails,  From seeming evil worketh good for me.\r\nAnd though I weep because those sails are tattered, Still will I cry, while my best hopes lie shattered:\r\n\"I trust in Thee.\"\r\n\"I will not doubt, though all my prayers return Unanswered from the still, white realm above;\r\nI will believe it is an all-wise love\r\nWhich has refused these things for which I yearn; And though at times I cannot keep form grieving, Yet the pure ardor of my fixed believing Undimmed shall bum.\r\nI will not doubt, though sorrows fall like rain, And troubles swarm like bees about a hive.  I will believe the heights for which I strive\r\nAre only reached by anguish and by pain;\r\nAnd though I groan and writhe beneath my crosses.\r\nI yet shall see through my severest losses The greater gain.\r\nI will not doubt. Well anchored in this faith.\r\nLike some staunch ship, my soul braves every gale; So strong its courage that it will not quail\r\nTo breast the mighty unknown sea of death.\r\nOh, may I cry, though body parts with spirit\r\n\"I do not doubt,\" so listening worlds may hear it. With my last breath.\r\n\r\n\"In fierce storms,\" said an old seaman, \"we must do one\r\nthere is only one way: we must put the ship in a certain position and keep her there.\"\r\nThis, Christian, is what you must do. Sometimes, like Paul, you can see neither sun nor stars, and no small tempest lies on you; and\r\nthen you can do but one thing; there is only one way.\r\nReason cannot help you; past experiences give you no light Even prayer fetches no consolation. Only a single course is left You\r\nmust put your soul in one position and keep it there.\r\nYou must stay upon the Lord; and come what may-winds, waves,   cross-seas, thunder, lightning, frowning rocks, roaring breakers-no matter what you must lash yourself to the helm, and hold fast your  confidence in God's faithfulness, His covenant engagement His\r\neverlasting love in Christ Jesus. --Richard Fuller.",1783499792051]